“friday was a half day =]
we went out for lunch. like
me lea cason molly kimmy. and other people
and then we just like walked around.
(i saw the pole i walked into last time =])
they all made fun of me though. haha lol
and then. i went to leas. and saw her kittens
and guess what.
THEYRE SO CUTEEE =]
like. tiny. and orange. i like the all orange one the best.
because. they were like. really cute =]”
This was just one of the incredibly well thought out and intellectually stimulating blog posts I wrote when I was 14. Over break, I revisited my old blog wayyy back from middle school and…
It made me kind of like, shrivel up in embarrassment. Like. For real.
Rereading what I wrote as a middle schooler definitely opened my eyes to how my rhetoric has (obviously) changed just in 4 years. I just can’t take past Rayna seriously with all her “likes” and random sentence fragments, and walking into poles (at least this hasn't changed). At the time though, I guess I thought I was just so super cool or something (I guess I can at least be thankful there wasn’t any tYpinG liK3 tHisS). It makes me wonder how our rhetoric naturally just changes like that; certainly, no one sat me down and told me, “Rayna, talking like that does not make you cooler, smarter, or more grown up. Stop it,” though I wish they did. Is it learning more in school? Reading more? Following our older siblings examples? Or just plain growing up?
Maybe it’s just a combination of all these things, and I’m willing to bet it doesn’t just end at 18. Maybe in 50 years 68 year old me will be reading this post and cringing in embarrassment over past me once again.
Or maybe not, because this time I think I’ve really nailed it; I’m just so super cool now.
Recently my friend Rachel and I went back to our old Xangas and just started reading and remembering stuff. We sure did write some stupid stuff that I don't really think would count as a 'blog'. Hopefully we all have gained some intelligence since then.
ReplyDeleteHaha, I was wondering where those elines came from. I read some things I wrote in middle school and just my syntax was different and disgraceful, we all go through it though. I don't think you should be embarrassed, we all those annoying memories.
ReplyDeleteI enjoy how you infuse your personality into your posts.
ReplyDeleteFor the record, I, too, have cringed as I've read my old writing. (Middle school is a black hole of awkwardness, is it not?)